My Music
Will I Find Me?
“Will I Find Me?” is the first single to come off my debut album, In A Room. I wrote it several years ago as I was about to enter university – a daunting but exciting new chapter of my life. At the time, I had already written so many songs about feeling unseen and unheard, but this one came at a turning point for me; I was tired of feeding into the wallflower archetype I’d created for myself. This song became my decision to face life head-on, not without fear, but in spite of it.
At its core, “Will I Find Me?” is about self-discovery, loss of innocence, the desire to be seen, and the struggle to hold onto your identity through major change. Throughout the song, I question whether I’ll ever truly be recognized for who I am, while still choosing to move forward anyway.
Most of the song came together in a single day, which rarely happens for me. But after writing it, I spent a long time second-guessing the lyrics because I worried they were too corny or that I wouldn’t be taken seriously. Eventually, though, I learned that honesty is more important than trying to appear profound all the time. Just because a song is hopeful doesn’t make it any less meaningful, and it doesn’t make me less of an artist either.
Rivers
I wrote “Rivers” for my mom during one of the hardest years our family’s been through. She was going through something deeply painful, and even though we all felt it in different ways, I knew she was carrying the heaviest part of it. I was amazed by how strong she was, but I also didn’t want her to feel like she had to be. I wanted her to know it’s okay to fall apart sometimes. That’s how you heal.
There’s a turning point in the song where I admit I don’t have the answers. I wanted her to choose herself for once, but that meant facing the fact that the version of love and family I grew up believing in wasn’t exactly what I thought. One lyric comes from something she actually said to me: her pain wasn’t mine to carry. But when someone’s your mom — and your favorite person in the world — it’s impossible not to feel it too.
In the end, the song becomes a kind of permission. An invitation to let go. To be human.
Rivers (Instrumental)
I’ll Be Right Here
I originally wrote “I’ll Be Right Here” for my little (now not-so-little) brother Zac when he was turning 13. It was my way of telling him that I’ll always be there for him, no matter what. Five years later, I finally decided to record it, and it became the first song I ever released on streaming platforms. In that time, we’d both matured and faced new experiences – some harder than others. And the song changed along with us.
I didn’t write the bridge until I was in the studio. When I thought about what I wanted to say, I remembered how our parents used to tell us that Zac and I needed to be there for each other, because one day it would just be the two of us. I think some of my “older-sibling guilt” from moving away to college slipped in there too…
One of my favorite little details: when I first wrote the chorus, it went, “even when you’re bigger and stronger than me.” But when I came back to record it, Zac had already grown taller, so the second time around, I changed it to “even though.”
At its core, the song is a promise to face life together. It’s about growing up, navigating change, and holding tight to the people you love for as long as you can. It’s the one song that, to this day, never fails to make me cry when I sing it.